The song I chose to dance to with my father at my wedding was “What a wonderful world” – pretty common and also beautiful at weddings. I chose this song because I felt that through my life, my family had given me a forever positive outlook. They showed me the beautiful things in the world through travel, friends, family and just plain old love. I was lucky.
As a teacher today, and especially by watching the news in recent days, I see how lucky I really was. There are so many people in the world who are not given any sort of positive outlook on life and only experience horrible and unimaginable lives. They see not the “disneyesque” world that I was so blessed to see (I am not in fantasy world THAT much, but I’m just trying to paint a picture:) ) but so many are brought up in a world of such hatred. How is it that this world can let that sort of hatred and unhappiness thrive in the lives of children and all people? It’s so unnerving for me to see so many innocent people die in war, shootings and sensless acts of violence that it makes me wonder what kind of world I am bringing this innocent and completly unknowing little boy into. How can I make sure that he is not a person to kill, or be killed in situations such as these? How can I be sure that he will be one that has a good heart, and no violent tendencies? How can I secure the fact that he will be one of the “good guys”? Hmmmm… I don’t think I can. Well, I’ll do my best and love him with all my heart- something every mother must hope is enough.
Sorry to be a downer. It’s just bringing a new life into such an unsure world can make you really think, and wonder what kinda future lies ahead.